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My kids are with their grandmother, my mother this week. This is the second week they are away from me. Last week they were with their father and his gf for the week. 

Next week I am on vacation for 2 weeks. I’m ready again. Once I come back to work it’s going to be a shit show again. 

The kids and I spent the weekend with E. We had an amazing time. He is so great with them and me.  He is likely one of the most laid back men I have ever met.  We ended up spending Sunday afternoon with his son.  He is so sweet. 

In dating E I have broken all my rules. All I can really say right now is..never say never because as soon as you do that is exactly what will happen. I like him. My time with him is fun and easy. My kids like him. It is however somewhat complicated..I guess dating at my age it’s going to be. But I like where it is. 

Truthfully..I hope this continues. I like how I feel when I am with him. 

Truthfully I haven’t been this open, honest and raw with anyone in years. Trust is not a strong point for me. I’m working on it..one day at a time.  He makes it easy for me to talk to him. 

Those are my truthful thoughts for today..

Cheers

TT

My kids are with their grandmother, my mother this week. This is the second week they are away from me. Last week they were with their father and his gf for the week.

Next week I am on vacation for 2 weeks. I’m ready again. Once I come back to work it’s going to be a shit show again.

The kids and I spent the weekend with E. We had an amazing time. He is so great with them and me. He is likely one of the most laid back men I have ever met. We ended up spending Sunday afternoon with his son. He is so sweet.

In dating E I have broken all my rules. All I can really say right now is..never say never because as soon as you do that is exactly what will happen. I like him. My time with him is fun and easy. My kids like him. It is however somewhat complicated..I guess dating at my age it’s going to be. But I like where it is.

Truthfully..I hope this continues. I like how I feel when I am with him.

Truthfully I haven’t been this open, honest and raw with anyone in years. Trust is not a strong point for me. I’m working on it..one day at a time. He makes it easy for me to talk to him.

Those are my truthful thoughts for today..

Cheers

Couple more pictures from the weekend. It was an amazing weekend.

Welcome to the ocean.

One of the weekend adventures.

Headed out exploring today. Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend!! 

Cheers.

Headed out exploring today. Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend!!

Cheers.

TGIF!!!

I’m so glad it’s Friday! It’s been a good week but a busy one. 

Kids came home from being aways with their father for a few days. They seem to have had a great time. Maddison came right to the house. Jarred stayed at his dads last night. Maddison told me about some of the mishaps. I guess we are going to have to have a family meeting..uugghh..

Well I’m off..

Cheers..

TGIF!!!

I’m so glad it’s Friday! It’s been a good week but a busy one.

Kids came home from being aways with their father for a few days. They seem to have had a great time. Maddison came right to the house. Jarred stayed at his dads last night. Maddison told me about some of the mishaps. I guess we are going to have to have a family meeting..uugghh..

Well I’m off..

Cheers..

Current view..just for a moment..

Current view..just for a moment..

Happy hump day. 

We have had a couple of very warm day. I love it but feel for those who have work directly in. 

I have come to realize that opening up and sharing my self with someone is very scary for me. If I let someone know what I am feeling it is a huge risk. It’s a risk of rejection.  The fear of being told that they don’t care about how I feel. I lived like that for many years. That is why I will often let others know that that are more than allowed to feel how they do. 

I recognize clearly that I can’t control how someone with react when I decide to share something.  I think that is why I am so careful when I decide to share and what. 

A very dear friend of my mine told me this week that I was very broken for a long time. That a man I had dated took so much from me. That any man that I were to date long term now would have to be very patient with me. She is right. There are many pieces to still put in place for me to be whole. I am so guarded and cautious. 

Giving physically is easy, sharing emotionally and mentally is very difficult. It’s a whole other level. I want to..I am ready to. I need him to be patient and let me know that he can be. When I meet him I guess I will know…

Cheers

Happy hump day.

We have had a couple of very warm day. I love it but feel for those who have work directly in.

I have come to realize that opening up and sharing my self with someone is very scary for me. If I let someone know what I am feeling it is a huge risk. It’s a risk of rejection. The fear of being told that they don’t care about how I feel. I lived like that for many years. That is why I will often let others know that that are more than allowed to feel how they do.

I recognize clearly that I can’t control how someone with react when I decide to share something. I think that is why I am so careful when I decide to share and what.

A very dear friend of my mine told me this week that I was very broken for a long time. That a man I had dated took so much from me. That any man that I were to date long term now would have to be very patient with me. She is right. There are many pieces to still put in place for me to be whole. I am so guarded and cautious.

Giving physically is easy, sharing emotionally and mentally is very difficult. It’s a whole other level. I want to..I am ready to. I need him to be patient and let me know that he can be. When I meet him I guess I will know…

Cheers

Lol you are just going to have to take my word for it :)

Lol you are just going to have to take my word for it :)